Friday, January 13, 2012
7 months old Harriz
I have finally achieved my short term goal, which is to breastfeed Harriz until he is 6 months old. He is now 7 months old and I am still breastfeeding him. My long term would be until he is 2 years old. He has already started to eat, and loves to eat. but, he still likes his mommy's milk :)... His progress is going very well. He now wants to crawl, and would push himself up with his hands in a 'get set' gear and would start to crawl a bit and then he would fall ( on a mat ).But, so far his progress is as what everyone would say is okay and I think that weight gain is also a good sign.
He likes to play with Kamila and he'll laugh at her jokes. I am glad that I have a wonderful husband that understands my feeling to be able to breastfeed Harriz fully, where his elder's sister (Kamila) did not had that chance (although breastfeed + formula milk until 10 months old).
I am able to feel proud of myself where I can still go on breastfeeding Harriz when I am still working (although bottle fed with mom's milk). Thank you Dear Sayang for being there when I needed comfort and felt worthless....You have been encouraging me to continue to breastfeed Harriz although there are a lot of obstacles to go through the journey of breastfeeding Harriz.Love you lots.Love you and the kids.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Breastfeeding journey
So far my breastfeeding journey still continues and i hope to go on strong. Harriz is already 5 months and a half. He is already 6.9kg. I am not sure to all, but his weight for me is considered as okay, as he is fully breastfed. Some breastfed babies do get bigger, but my baby still looks small. I am not sure where the kilos has gone to, maybe it is for his muscle and bones structure.
His progress so far, is that he can now push himself from lying position to lie on his stomach instantly. He now wants to move forward. He sometimes will be at a different station if he just roll himself from one station to another. From point A to point B. He knows his name when being called out. And remembers people. If he wants you to take him from another person he can just put out his hand to you.
He'll laugh at your(not so funny) jokes :P. Basically he is a healthy and bright child. Not to exaggerate, but I find that he is brighter than his older sister at his age. Maybe it's because of the breast milk that he gets everyday that his sister did not (because of mom's lack of knowledge). This made me feel sometimes guilty of not able to breast feed Kamila (Harriz's elder sister) exclusively like him.
My current target is to breast feed Harriz until 6 months old. And will try to continue until he is 2 years old.
I hope I can.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Happily breastfeeding
So, I hope the progress of breastfeeding with Harriz will get better and he will be able to latch on perfectly without any more pain. Since he still is quite sleepy with the jaundice, he still would not open his mouth wide enough, but the pain that I usually would feel before, have already subsided.
Hope that the journey of breastfeeding with him would be a better one than his elder sister.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Tongue tied
I have done a minor surgery to my dear baby. I know, I know, why the hell would I do that to my only 14days child? Well, first of all, I am confused of why am I not able to let him latched on correctly at my breast.Although I had followed all of the basic steps for proper latch on with my baby, but, I just couldn't let him latch on.
Every time he feeds, I just could not stand the pain, and had also cried in a few occasions as his sucking was pretty hard every time.My nipple had gone sore and for the first few days of him feeding after his birth my nipples bleed.But, as I was determined to breastfeed my baby until at least 2 years old, I had gone to a Lactation Consultant,Farah from Sarakids yesterday to know what is the problem.
I had told her everything and she had checked my baby's mouth and saw that he has a tongue tied case. Which I never heard of. This was something new to me and I was determined to find out and still want to keep on breastfeeding my child.
After googling the information with dear hubby in the net, we decided to go to Dr Koe in Jalan Klang Lama (which had been referred to by Farah) for the minor operation which is called as 'frenotomy'. Well its kinda of snipping the part of frenulum below the tongue to be able for the child to open wider his mouth.
I had discussed this matter with hubby and he being supportive just said okay as long as it did not give any complications to the baby especially and also the mother. Well, being with Dr Koe and hear her explaining, makes me and hubby feeling a bit relieved as she also mentioned that if the tongue tied is not being treated, for the short term is that feeding the baby will be a nightmare for both the baby and mother, as the baby could not latch on well and could not get enough milk and therefore could not get enough nutrition and would be a sleepy and tired baby. As the baby needs to grow and gain at least 20grams per day. As for the long term baby's speech will be better, as he could speak clearly and the pronunciation is clear. Dr. Koe also had informed that maybe when he is older that if he wants to pronounce for example the word lorry if he did not do the surgery he would pronounce it as lolly.
So, after receiving much information from her, we had decided to go ahead of the surgery. Actually, I was not really prepared of the surgery and felt sorry for my dear child, but, since the Dr. had already done the minor surgery more than once and had a vast of clients seeing her, I just trust her.
So now, after the surgery which takes around 5 seconds, immediately my baby could latch on properly and for the first time, I felt that breastfeeding is not a painful experience and I can enjoy the moment with my child. Now, he can breastfeed with me anytime and I just need to continue breastfeeding him and express milk to use for when I start working in the next 2 months and a half.
Just hope that after this the journey of breastfeeding with Harriz will be a better experience and I am able to at least breastfeed him until he is 2 years old. Wish me luck y'all and just pray for us.
Monday, October 5, 2009
am i too emotional or too obsessed
actually, i am having quite a bad day, apart from monday blues (you know what i mean....) with the stress from work, and not having a good rest, plus a headache of things to do and not to mention of the breastfeeding kamila spirit, that has nearly gone "poof",off from my list of things to do.
to think of the over emotionally thinking of wanting my baby to taste only my milk, instead of cow milk,etc.... what i can say that i am quite obsessed with it. i still do think that my baby would get the best from my own milk, but, it seems like mommy is just to tired to do all the pumping and couldn't have enough time to do all the pumping according to schedule.work is just too overloaded.(i managed to write today, as my boss is away...but, tomorrow...................)
i have tried baby, but, it seems like its not working!!! but, i still try to pump when i managed to sneak out off seminars or courses.but, it looks like my milk is getting dried up. i tried to look at others blogs to get the idea of how to increase my breastmilk, but, i do feel embarassed and down at myself,as they could even provide their young ones their own milk without help from other formula until up to 4 years. but me.........................................
kamila, maybe you'll be reading this when you're going to be much older and wiser. i am sorry. for not being able to provide you the best, yet i tried. i really tried. mama, always love you.
i will try to give you the best. mama is still trying to provide you my milk....i will do it until the last drop.
love you baby...

Friday, September 11, 2009
My journey through breastfeeding
but, HOW???????? please someone out there that could help me.that could advise me what to do.....

Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Breastfeeding journey
i don't even go to any classes for pre pregnancy,post pregnancy or lactation aid classes. little do i know, that these classes are best to attend to, as sometimes i do not even know how to handle such simple things regarding to the baby. the simplest example is that, when the baby cries, what are the actions that needs to be done. as i was the type that listened to every one that are older and wiser ( more experienced than i am), i tend to just follow them. the crying of a baby seems to be different each time, and a mother can sense it.
i don't know that, usually, a baby would cry when she/he needs to be hold,change their nappies, sleepy,etc. but, what i knew was that a baby cries when they are hungry...but, this is actually a false fact, as a baby would show cues or signs when they are hungry before crying. a crying hungry baby shows that they are too hungry, and it is actually not a good signto know they're hungry!!!
baby would show cues like they tend to be more alert, would suck their hands and more....so, we need to be more alert to the babies cues or signs.
these simple signs are what i need to know, as it is quite simple and EASY to understand. ughhhhhh..how i wish that i can turn back time.....
well, getting back to my breastfeeding journey, i could not say that i failed, but more like i learned and able to understand more... i have tried to give the best to my baby, but obviously i think its not enough. right now, i admit that i do feel useless and ignorant about breastfeeding, and i needed to have someone that could help me into this journey. i do feel stressed out, and in the end i think that i've wasted my time into stressing myself out.
i still do feel that i need help. a help from a proper lactation consultant. the problem is, i don't know what question to ask. where to start...but, what i know that i need someone that could highlight me in what i need to know, what i should , how to do it,etc,etc.... with less money going out from my pocket, :)
so, this entry is actually for me to get to know better on breastfeeding, what i need to know, before getting a second baby.....hmmm wonder when will that be ......
note for my self: be prepared, be very prepared. go to classes. learn what you need to know. go into forums such as susuibu.com,breastfeeding .com, etc.etc...the point is learn as much as you can.....

Thursday, June 25, 2009
My milk production
wondering why i put this picture here, well, this is to give me the motivation to further pump and pump!!! for my dear kamila.
as breastmilk is the option there is!!! i need to be more focus in this relactate thing!!! be more energetic and constantly pumping by schedule..
this picture is my milk production early morning at work...yesterday..while i was fasting,was quite shocked as usually i would only get around 1 oz. yesterday, i got 2 oz. well, that's why i snapped the picture to further motivate MYSELF to keep on pumping and be focused!!!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Alahai.... pam ku
sebenornye, pam nih, dh pernah, terjatuh,tapi sekali je, akibat terlupe yg kite still pakai, almaklumla, pam ni kecik senang nk di bawa ke mana2.
pastu, pam nih, mula start buat hal. makin menjadi2 dlm minggu nih. bateri dia asyik kena caj je. bukannye kejap, tp, dr 8 jam ke 24 jam. dh bkn portable la pam nih, klau asyik kena caj je. ingatkan ada masalah dgn bateri, x terletak betul2 ke. dh check mmg ok je. ntahla, apa masalah pam nih.
dua tiga hari nih, pam nih nmpk dh ok klau caj, tp bila sampai je kat opis nk pam, tetiba lak tgk bateri nih berkelip2 cam x caj lak. ape hal lak nih. dh satu hari caj, x kan la x cukup caj lg.
jgn la meragam pam oiiii.....dh la ada satu je nih. camne lak nk pam nk bg susu kat kamila nih. sian dia, dh la sekarang nih, kena tambah dgn formula. at least, dpt la gak mama bg susu mama, walaupun sikit.
minta2 la pam nih ok lik. tgh tgg dr kawan yg supply kan pam nih utk jwb lik soklan pasal pam nih. minta2 la leh tolong betulkan lik. klau x leh, nangis x berlagu.......huhuuuu.....
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Kamila nak tumbuh gigi
sekarang nih, dia dh nk tumbuh gigi. camne leh tau ek, sebenornye, ms tgh bg dia mkn buah mangga (bg dia isap2 je), termasukla seketul beso sikit(x le beso sgt,takut dia tercekik je,kamila buat muka selambe je) so, apalagi, masukkan jari kelingking kat mulut dia,kononnye nk kuarkan la.tp, to my surprise, rs cam ada keras2 kat gusi bawah kamila. igtkan ada benda ke apa ke kat gusi dia, tp, rs2 byk kali, x gak ilang2, rupe2 nye, nk ada gigi dh anak mama.
padanla bila bg dia mkn je, dia cam gigit2 je sudu tu, rupe2nye nk tumbuh gigi. x de la meragam sgt, cume dia tu asyik nk main je. tido pun dh kurang.bila x bagi dia main, merangkak2 ke, mula la nk mengamuk. melentik2 badan dia. ble letak balik br la ok. hai, anak mama nih, dh pandai nk mengamuk.(kecik2 x pe, dh beso nnt, mama pulas telinga dia) ;).
so, excited gak la dia nk tumbuh gigi nih, lepas ni, x yah la kena blend makanan dia(hehe...cam org malas je kan). kena potong kecik2 je. cepat je besar anak mama.tp, yg x bestnye, takut dia nk test power gigi dia, kang abis semuanye kena gigit dgn dia. heee,jgnla dia gigit nipple mama dia.kang mama ngajuk x nk bg dh.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Breastfeed mothers cepat laparr...
sampai cik abang pun tegur. kita makan lebih banyak dari dia. heheheh......

so, hari nih, terjumpala satu thread kat dalam susuibu.com satu website khas utk malaysian food calorie guide. nih, utk mengira berapa kalori pemakanan kita setiap hari. klau nk makan dengan sihat and maintain kurus. (ni bagus nih, leh cube utk turunkan berat ni

so, inilah dia website yg ditunggu2 (ye ke ada org tunggu nih?

cekodok.com.
so,sila2 la,dtg menjenguk ke website nih. you'll be surprised at how much calories you've been eating all this while.
cheers...
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Why i want my children to be breastfeed (from a father's point of view)
WHY WOULD I WANT MY CHILDREN TO BE BREASTFED
They come in different sizes and shapes; creating quite a stir for some men but they actually serve the most important function to human being that is to breastfeed babies and if possible toddlers. Nowadays, they are more seen in magazines and television promoting any kind of merchandising including cars,perfume and more that people forget the whole purpose of them. People sometimes refuse to call them their real name but prefer to use their nicknames such as tits, boobs, etc.
I thought this was the time that we, men should realize the real purpose and potential of them and acknowledge women by recognizing them by their faces rather than their assets. Although ‘they’ can look very delicious during breastfeeding.
When my wife got pregnant for the first time, I knew I was going to ask her to fullybreastfeed our child. I am lactose intolerant. The smell and the sight of artificial milk can easily make my stomach upset. I do not want my children to even have a sip of those artificial milk. I read a lot about the goodness of breastfeeding and have experienced most of it if not all.
Let me share with you the advantages of being a dad to breastfed children
• Breast-feeding helps women get back to their pre-pregnancy state. It contracts the uterus and helps to expedite the healing process after delivery.Advantage to dad; within one to two weeks my wife was already well enough to cook for the family and look after all of us. Save money for eating out.
• Breastfeeding helps women to lose weight faster. Yes, less money to spend on slimming products or classes or treatment.
• The babes sucking, vital for the production of milk stimulates the release of milky hormones, prolactin and oxytocin. These hormones also help a woman relax. Therefore less arguing and confrontation with me. Some argue that its psychology thinking, but still, to me it means a lot.
• One very IMPORTANT fact for working dads or maybe for some who is being controlled by the queen. We don’t have to wake up at night to prepare milk.Mom’s supply is ready anytime. And while they are at it, they can simply continue changing the baby’s diapers as well. I’m sure most of us men will gladly agree.
• Traveling is easy. No need to bring all the bottles and milk. As long as we bring the ‘queen’ along, we will be hassle free. We only have to worry about those pesky diapers bag.
• We can save a lot of time and money on buying artificial milk. Breast milk is free. To some, it doesn’t seem to bother a lot, but try think about the free timethat you can have by not going to the store every now and then to get those artificial milk, and imagine if you accidentally got the wrong milk instead! I’m sure most of us have faced the wrath of the queen.
• A breast fed child will be less likely to suffer from asthma, eczema and a whole host of other little goodies; saving yet more money, this time on medical bills. More money for us to buy our toys
• Breastfeeding satisfies baby's emotional needs. All babies need to be hold regularly. It is much easier to console a crying baby with breastfeeding. Less crying means less emotional pressure for moms and dads and more time for us to spend reading the newspaper.
As you can begin to see and appreciate, anything to do with the breasts shouldn't be rushed or underestimated.
Breast-feeding isn't just about feeding babies. Breastfeeding should be a normal picture to our society at any time,anywhere. A baby sucking is an urge of great magnitude, rather like you. Babies need to suck.
With breastfeeding babies expend energy; derive comfort,security, love and warmth. It's their first social exchange. It exercises their jaw and aids the growth of teeth. Demand feeding as we call it in the trade, is instinctive and shouldn't be messed with.
We should promote this fact and be in tune with it. Sadly this is a lost art.One controversial issue with men and breastfeeding is feeding in public.Husbands should not be ashamed of their wives who opt for publicbreastfeeding (although I can get very fiery when someone tries to look closer).They know what they are doing. Do not aspect your wife to breastfeed yourchild in the restroom.
Would you like to have your lunch or snack in the toilet? Ifyou are ok with it, then there must be something wrong with you. There are a lotof ways to actually breastfeed discreetly. In the market right now, we have plenty of choices of nursing clothes. There are also ways to cover their assets and women usually know about it.
And guys ...please mind your eyesight; the mother is trying to feed her baby. You can have plenty of time at home.Nature at it's best and most beautiful. Breast-feeding for many women is a passionate affair. Place this somewhere safe in your mind and when the time comes to share your life with the woman you adore and you both decide to have children, give her all the encouragement you can. She'll love you even more for it.
Passionately, together you can watch your child grow, oh and her breasts too..........Breasts are beautiful; they also produce milk, the best pre-packed conveniencefood out there, now that's an advertisement well worth remembering...Reference:1. Hey Guys! More than a Cracking Pair, Tee Ashford.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Relactation story
even she (shelle) can give her breastmilk through expressing!!!
not necessarily through breastfeed only. so, gals, please be mentally and physically strong to block any comments or saying that we would not be able to breastfeed our own baby. BE STRONG. we can and we WILL do it!!!!
Hi Liss
Just wanted to drop you a line to tell you that I relactated 8 months after stopping. It can be done and this is my story ... *very breifly, of course*
When my son was born nearly five years ago, I was determined to breastfeed. Always wanted to... and always knew that was the way in which all my children would be feed. After I gave birth (3 days later), I tore all the muscles up the back of my spine and through my left arm.. (unrelated to the birth, just a freak thing that happened).
This accident left me with a frozen left arm, hense leading to great difficulty in latching my son on the opposite breast, my right one. This in turn, lead to me getting a massive crack in the right nipple. As I could not correct the latch (due to the frozen arm and mass amounts of pain) the crack never healed and contined to bleed and expel green puss at every feed. Four weeks later, mastitis set in. The doctor's believed that infection had found it's way into my nipple through the crack, and burrowed deep into my breast tissue. For 7 days I took oral antibiotics to no avail, then the doctor sent me to hospital for IV antibiotics and heat ultrasound techniques on the affected breast. Another 5 days passed before they sent me to have an ultrasound, as my mastitis wouldn't clear. Turns out I had an abscess the size of a tennis ball under the areola and was prepped for immediate surgery.
I was later informed that the abscess was so infected and severe, that I would be dead if it wasn't for the anibiotics and removal. Afterwards, I had a massive hole in my breast, that could not be stitched up, as it would cause my breast to collapse. So instead, I was packed with 2 and a half metres of gauze, that was removed and re-packed everyday.. (without pain medication I must add! ) Needless to say, the doctor cut half my milk ducts to reach the abscess and due to the packing and re-packing of gauze, I couldn't put my son to feed on that side and my milk dried up. I kept feeding from the other breast and topping up with formula...
Of course, I looked very lopsided as my left breat grew to twice the size of the right one! After four months, my son flat out refused to nurse anymore and my breatfeeding days were over... At first I was okay with this, as everything was such a mission anyway, but as the months passed, I grew bitter and resentful. I blamed the medical profession for allowing this to happen and was angry that no one would support me when all this was happening. I even remember a lactation consultant telling me in hospital... "Wow, you have been through a lot. Maybe it would be best if you just cut your losses and quit" I was blown away by this! She should have been the one rooting for me!
Anyway, as time passed I became quite depressed everytime I made a bottle of formula and decided I wanted to breastfeed again. I read some books, checked out the net and decided to give it a go! I hired a hospital grade breast pump (from my local chemist for 6 weeks), pumped every 3 hours during the day and twice at night, and this is what happened over the six weeks...
Week 1 - After pumping for this week, I noticed My breasts felt 'sweaty' and alittle damp. No milk though.
Week 2 - Seen a drop appear during each pumping session. The drop never fell or dripped down, but it did form. The drop was fairly clear too .. similiar to colostrum.
Week 3 - Several drops are forming, and breasts are starting to feel more full and heavier.
Week 4 - Drops are starting to fall during pumping and even noticed wet patch on bra.
Week 5 - Drops are now flowing slowly, milk is now white in colour (no longer clear), breasts are very heavy and are definitly slightly 'leaking' between pumping sessions.
Week 6 - Sprays appeared during pumping and let-downs became apparent.
After this, I purchased an Ameda Yours Purely Double Breast Pump and continued pumping on the same schedule. Obviously my son didn't physically 'breastfeed' as he was nearly 12 months old and wasn't interested anymore, so I just pumped my milk and bottlefed him. This whole story might seem silly and time consuming to some people, but since I was becoming so depressed and obsessed with the whole situation,
I knew that this was the only solution to my feeling okay with what happened to me. Turns out I was right. I kept pumping and bottlefeeding for the next 12 months and weaned my son off the 'breast' (AKA - the pump) just after his second birthday... You can do it Liss and I wish you all the best.Shelle__________________
*Tandem Breastfeeding a 2 year old and 1 year old... Life is Beautiful!
*Me: 28
DH: 37
# 1: 7 Years (Boy) June 2000
# 2: 2 Years (Girl) April 2005
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
my journey in breastfeeding
kesilapan pertama selepas bersalin, di mana ibu2 digalakkan utk menyusu bayi waktu sejam yg pertama utk menggelakkan dr kematian dn beberapa faktor lg, tidak ku lakukan. mmg ms tu, tak tau menahu pun ttg statement ni. selepas bersalin, bb tak diberikan kpd ku utk menyusu.mmg tak tahu menahu pun yg kena terus menyusu selepas bersalin.mmg kurang ilmu.
sepanjang duduk di hospital selama 3 hari, susu ku tak keluar. hanya ada macam air je yg keluar. masa tu, cetek pengetahuan, jadi ingat kan normal, kalau bb kena minum formula.doktor plak tak lak cakap yg susu ibu lebih baik. mmg menyesal klau teringat balik. sepatutnye bg bb stimulate, kena suruh gak menyusu. doktor pulak tak cakap apa2 pun. tak lak promote breastfeeding.
nk jadi cerita, masa lepas keluar hospital, bb tak reti latching betul2. so, mmg tiap kali bg susu, sakit. bb lak setiap kali menyusu lama, dlm sejam ke 2 jam, tapi, mesti tak kenyang2. asyik menangis je. time tu, dh start rs fed up.letih,rs depressed pun ada.sakit belakang tak terkatala. time mlm2,mesti bb mengamuk, mcm asyik tak cukup je minum. bila dh asyik menangis org lain pulak cakap tak cukup susu, so kesilapan kedua pula berlaku, bila bg susu formula. sbb tiap kali bg formula, bb mmg boleh tido lena.mungkin sebab dh terlalu kenyang.bila baca balik forum2 susuibu.com, susu formula mmg leh buat bb kenyang lebih lama, sbb susah nk hadam and bb lambat lapar.
so, itula yg terjadi sepanjang tempoh pantang. nk dikatakan setiap mlm asyik bg formula saja, sbb dh terlalu letih, bb asyik berkepit sj. rupa2nya bila dh jumpa si.com dgn membaca pengalaman and maklumat2, barula tau yg bb tengah growth spurt. lepas tu, cuba utk nk bg susuibu pada anak. beli pump, bg bb direct ,jumpa lactation consultant.tapi, entahla, masa tu mungkin determination utk menyusu ada, tapi, kekuatan dan ilmu utk nk pam x de. jadi, susu memang tak byk yg keluar.
sekarang, setelah meng'explore' dan membaca lebih lagi susuibu.com, barula mendapat inspirasi dan keinginan utk cuba lebih rajin utk pam bg susuibu pada 'kamila'. mama sayang kamila.mama nk cuba yg terbaik utk anak mama.lepas ni, mama nk cuba pam lebih rajin lagi.
ku dpt inspirasi utk pam drp seorg forumer susuibu.com gak "cik hayatie". selalu tengok blognye and buat panduan dr situ, ini blognye My 'xclusively xpressing' .
mmg sgt berharap dpt hasilkan susu yg byk utk kamila, walaupun sekarang dia dh nk masuk 7 bulan 16 sept nanti. tapi, walaupun dia dh nk masuk 7 bulan, and if susu ana masih ada, ana nk juga provide dia susu ana. insya allah klau niat baik and ada TEKAD & NEKAD,mesti boleh. chaiyok,chaiyok....... TUHAN MAHA BERKUASA. AMIN......
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Support Group Meeting (29 Mac 2009)
masa time berdiskusi tu, nasib la leh dengar betul2, sian ayang kena jaga kamila. tapi, dengar cerita yg kamila ada ramai kawan sambil main,cute sgt dengar.di bawah ni tengah mendengar dengan khusyuknye,heheh...


time tukar baju ni...tengah meragam sikit. dah tak ikut tema, sebab tak de baju warna biru.baru je lepas habis dengar discussion

sesi kesimpulan untuk 3 kumpulan yg buat group discussion. tengah mendengar penerangan pn. kamariah sebelum mula sesi kesimpulan semua group. semuanya dengan santai.
selepas sesi kesimpulan dari 3 group,

terus bagi kamila makan lepas dh ambil gambar.rupenye mengamuk laparla.....siap tengok baba nk posing gak sambil makan. :)