entri luahan perasaan

salam and good day,

hmmmm...sesatunye entry yang di buat dalam bahasa melayu. sebabnye rasanye dalam bahasa melayula boleh nak meluahkan perasaan ni.

sejak 2 bulan lebih, bekerja di tempat baru ni, macam2 dugaan yang datang. dan macam-macam perangai yang datang. kebanyakan staf pentadbiran yang ada di ofis, semuanye ok, kecuali 2 ke 3 org saja. untuk staf makmal pulak, lainla ceritanye, sbbnye x pernah jejak pun kaki kat makmal2 sini.

mesti semua hairan kan, dh 2 bulan lebih kat sini, tapi x pernah melawat pun lab kat situ. yela...camnela nak pergi kat lab tu kalau keje kat ofis nih, x pernah habis2. kalau dah habis satu, sepuluh lagi datang.pastu, yang bestnye, tiap kali tgh nk belajar satu benda, mesti nye sekerat-sekerat.sbbnye, mesti ada masalah baru dtg, pastunye time tulah nak kena belajar pulak apa lak masalahnye, camene nak selesaikan lak. mana tak tension orang camni......

sebelum dapat keje ni...tension tu, tension la gak...tapi,x sangka datang sini lagi tension.work load datang menimbum-nimbun. masalah staf pun datang macam tu gak. x sampai seminit, ada je, yang gtau benda yang x sedap didengar stafla, pelajarla,pensyarahla......penat la......

so, bilanye masa untuk family memalam tu...memang rasa nye dah penatla badan, kepala...semuanya la...tapi,kesian lak dgn baby...dia lak bila balik je umah...terus nak terkam mama dia....kesian,memang kesian...tapi, bila dh macam ni nk buat camne. kena redha je la...sebabnye sapa suruh cari pasal minta keje kat sini..... :P.

x pela...apa-apa pun, mmg ada hikmahnye...x semua nye staf sini yang buat perangai...memang ada yang baik...nak tolong menolong....ada gak pensyarah yang ok, ada pelajar yang ok....yang x bestnye bos, asyik suruh buat keje.bile explain x suka...nak buat camne prosedur kat tempat baru nih banyak sangat.memangla benda yang kita buat lambat jawapan nye.

kalau nak cepat buat sendiri!!!!........ :) .huh...mampos nak cakap macam ni kat bos...hmmmm....just layannnnnn jela...cube jela buat yang terbaik kat sini. apa-apa minta petunjuk dengan allah, berdoa la banyak2....aikkkk...dh leh nasihat kat diri sendiri lak.....

so,layan je la.....luahan perasaan nih......

p/s: keje melambak pun buat susah nak update blog ni.....

a new beginning

good day to all,

i have just gotten off from a 2 week intensive course, that teaches me and gave me the details that i needed to know for my daily basis job.

i have decided to to give the input that i have learnt a go. so far, so good. i have started to enjoy the work, rather than would love to stay at my room and try to learn from my own experience kind of thing.

i now know exactly what i needed to do. now, i am in the process of completing my desk file. its kind of a file that describes the exact daily tasks that i needed to do and the details of the place that i work. so far, the progress is looking good.

i just need to get some more datas from my colleague and staff, for the desk file.
so,right now, this giving me quite a headache.

so, i'm going to continue my job now.so, till the next entry..............

am i too emotional or too obsessed

hmmmm...judging from the title what would surely cross into your mind.

actually, i am having quite a bad day, apart from monday blues (you know what i mean....) with the stress from work, and not having a good rest, plus a headache of things to do and not to mention of the breastfeeding kamila spirit, that has nearly gone "poof",off from my list of things to do.

to think of the over emotionally thinking of wanting my baby to taste only my milk, instead of cow milk,etc.... what i can say that i am quite obsessed with it. i still do think that my baby would get the best from my own milk, but, it seems like mommy is just to tired to do all the pumping and couldn't have enough time to do all the pumping according to schedule.work is just too overloaded.(i managed to write today, as my boss is away...but, tomorrow...................)

i have tried baby, but, it seems like its not working!!! but, i still try to pump when i managed to sneak out off seminars or courses.but, it looks like my milk is getting dried up. i tried to look at others blogs to get the idea of how to increase my breastmilk, but, i do feel embarassed and down at myself,as they could even provide their young ones their own milk without help from other formula until up to 4 years. but me.........................................

kamila, maybe you'll be reading this when you're going to be much older and wiser. i am sorry. for not being able to provide you the best, yet i tried. i really tried. mama, always love you.

i will try to give you the best. mama is still trying to provide you my milk....i will do it until the last drop.

love you baby...